“Anonymous” writes: Hi,  I am experiencing scent, such as cigar smoke and aftershave, stenchy smells one day; then it will be flowers and the smell of spring another day, it literally is alternate days. Also feeling like someone is actually breathing on me, like standing right in front my face? It seems no matter how I try I cannot make this go away?

Child, you are a very anxious being.  You hold your heart very tightly. There is so much yet for you to be.  Allow yourself to be free.  You are in truth excited about this scent opening, being.  You want to speak it to the world that you are hearing, feeling.  You fear it.  You fear many things, my dear, gentle one.  Such expectations.  The senses were all around you.  They are all there for all beings.  Through certain understandings in the growth of the being, they limit.  They close down.  And you are beginning to open to all the wonder that is at your fingertips.  Your spirit, your energy is very wise, has experienced many lifetimes.  As to whether you believe this or not, worry not.  Anxiety is strong in your being.  You need to find ways in which to make peace with yourself.

There is part of your conscious mind has accepted a story of your path that is not true.  I don’t if you understand this, my child, but you struggle with the understanding of who you be and what has been in your path.  Your asking and your opening are a beginning.  Do not fear it, do not judge it, do not limit it, not try to write it down or keep any thought of regulations about it.  There is great ease for you my child.  It is in process.

H writes, “Dear guides please can you tell me about my guardian angel/s and spirit guides, and how I can learn to connect with them…. as I have been trying for years. Many thanks.”

And they have been trying for many more.  And it is not that you haven’t communicated, many times.  But you have expectations my dear, so release those and feel with your whole being the love and support that is there for you.  Warm.  Let not your conscious mind twist you into a small box that is not at all where you want to be.  Allow these angels or beings (whatever you wish to call them).  Some of them are rough and burly and quite wondrous, some of them will draw you to a most amazing place to be still, to hear.

Ask them to use a form in which you would not expect, but you would know that it was them.  They have tried this many times but you feel it must be something you have asked for.  Listen to their energy, be it a butterfly, a penny, a light….  This is the path of least resistance, my child.  You have been trying so hard that you have become rigid.  Blessed one, that is not what you are about.  The tingling in your hands, don’t deny it.  Perhaps one wants to move through you.  Don’t be afraid of it.  For often your expectations cause limitations.  And you do not want this.  Be in peace.  They are with you.  Trust that you will find a form to communicate.  And know that we are here.

Starr writes, “It feels like something is missing in my life and so I keep traveling to try and ¨find myself¨ and in doing so I gave up everything I had, including a wonderful man. I am trying to follow my heart, but it’s often conflicted. I think I get caught up in what I’m feeling at a particular moment and make quick decisions without truly thinking them through. I guess it’s like, is the grass really greener on the other side? Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn’t, but you don’t know that until you go through with it. But if you don’t try, you always would have wondered. This has always been my life philosophy but so far in my life it’s never worked out. But yet I still can’t shake this feeling that I have to know more, to feel more, to be more. This feeling always creeps up on me when everything in my life is good. What if there’s something else?

But as of late I am truly starting to realize that sometimes what I have in front of me is really all I need. My question is, is it too late? I have a lot of regrets about leaving this man. But now we are worlds apart and experiencing different things in our lives. We are growing apart whether we like it or not. And I’ve told him how I feel. I don’t know how he feels about me anymore. Is there is even a chance we will get back together next year. I know I need to start living my life for me and I intend to try, but should I keep it in my sights that we will be together again, or just let it go? Walking away from him feels like the worst mistake of my life. But I just don’t know why I can’t ever be content? What else is it that I’m searching for? Is it a man? Is it my heart? My destiny? Where do I need to go to find it, or do I have it right in front of me? I am very lost, please help.”

Dearest one, you were raised under an attitude that all the important knowledge lay outside of you and none within, that you were not a part of the great world.  And so of course I’m not surprised that you’ve been busy looking, chasing, reading, seeking, taking great wisdom from others, not thinking that there is great wisdom within you.  But there is, yes, as you very well know in the deepest part of Starr.  Be still. See the cloak that you wear, its richness.  None of your seeking has gone unknown.  It has helped you to realize that you have within you great knowledge, great power.  But like the great artists of the world you must create that that you are.  Allow it to come forward, to be.  It is not that you will not at some point see the reflection of yourself through a love’s eyes.  But it is more important right now to love yourself in your own eyes.  See yourself.  Witness your own life.

You have judged yourself harshly lately and you are angry with your pursuit of something that….  Well, but can you be surprised by all that you have read, saying what you must do and not do and eat and not eat and be and not be.  Back and forth, up and down, you’re exhausted.  You’re exhausted seeking the truth, and did it lie right before you?  In your own heart?  In your own being?

Wise.  Wise one.  Let me tell you, you have been a sage many times.  In the native cultures you have taught the story.  You spent so much time seeking it when it was within.  Looking for permission; this came from an early time in your life.  Seek not permission from others now my dear, but from yourself.  No, you do not need a ritual, you do not need a course, you do not need a book; you need you.  Your connection with the universe your connection with the power that be, whether you call it God, Tao, Mother Energy.  To walk barefoot on your plane of learning, to understand that you are rooted deep within its history and its life.  You have been disappointed by so many because you are seeking something that you long ago learned.  So be not disappointed.  Seek not that that was; be.  As to the relationship, if you can be as honest with this one as you are to yourself, then the choices might be different.  Play no games, be my child.  For you are radiant and beautiful.

Violets writes, “Before you disregard this post, please consider this question seriously because I truly am asking it in utter seriousness. What I want to know is why am I so obsessed with popping pimples, picking scabs and draining pus from wounds? Whenever I have a wound that is infected or see someone with an infected wound, a pimple or scab, I become very intent on cleaning out the pus. I almost feel like an animal, I have this need to clean out wounds until they are free of infection. I know it sounds weird. Can you explain why? It’s like this visceral drive I have, it’s very powerful.”

It is from a past life, dear–one that is still very present within you.  For you do not leave all the learning from a past life; you carry it with you in your vibrational code.  As you evolve it will be less strong.  It was simply a recent experience—a doctor you were.  And of course you know yourself how the medical has changed.  It used to be that things were lanced and opened and cleaned.  You lived in a time of the great plague where there were so many of these terrible sores and you knew very well that there was something insidious within them.  To make balance with that life that you are in now you have learned many things about this but there is still a deep knowledge of it having to be released, eradicated.  To be present in your existence now you need to be very understanding of being right here and now, very present in this world.  It isn’t a compulsion; it is a knowledge, a knowing deep within you of that that was. But now in your world there are other ways of dealing with these things and of course the plague does not exist in the same way.  Although there are areas in the world where it exists.

So now there are promises at hand, which are not eradicating sores, but of loving and healing–in a different way.  You have a wonderful talent of sound.  I’m not going to tell you about it, but I want you to try to bring more music into your life.  It eases you and helps you to be very present in this promise that you are here now for.  Don’t feel badly about that that you are.  Ancient doctors can do wondrous things.  Much love to you.

Andrea wonders about a past life connection with her friend’s son. She went to visit the friend and her family in the UK and spent much time with the little boy walking through shops and playing with his toys. She writes, “I love their whole family, but it was the hardest to leave him. I actually cried in the car as we left. It has been suggested to me that we had a past life connection and this would make sense to me, considering how I felt. If you don’t mind, could you clarify this for me?”

Yes, my dear.  You have had past experiences, several, with this being.  You have nurtured and cared for this one in many forms.  It is not surprising that you worry and wanted to simply bask in the light of being together.  But know that this time there are different choices, different promises.  And in time there will be the completion of a promise with this one–but not yet.  Trust.

He knows it as well, and feels very loved by you.  It is all positive.  I know you worry that he will not  have that that he needs in many ways.  But he has chosen this path and it is exactly what it needed to be.  And you, my dear, evolved being know that you cannot be responsible for another’s growth; only your own.  So send light and love, as you know it’s very strong.

D asks, “Why do I cry when I’m alone lately. I thought I connected the crying to feeling for my Dad’s tragic past. I’m not sure what to make from it.  A crying spell has happened before and I changed my choices and it stopped happening.  I’m not sure what to change this time or if I really am just crying for my Dad. I’ve made steps to work through that with him and I’m still crying. I want to follow my inner truth and I feel there is a message here for me.  Do you have any insight?

Crying is a wonderful tool in the physical world.  The composition of tears changes as the emotional state changes.  You will always have tears, blessed one, for you are an emotional being.  Yet you show it very seldom to others.  You also find comfort in the crying and in the pain, for you feel it brings him closer to you in a time of knowing.  But as you grow and evolve and your vibration changes, you are understanding that you do not need to feel the pain to be present in the love of that father.  But that love and that bond is with you now and will always be.  Know that it still grows and magnifies in your growth, and his, may I say.  Don’t fear it.  Don’t be so hard on yourself.  You try to do things so perfectly.  Allow the balance of life to be present in your life–the give and take, the ebb and flow.  You become too rigid sometimes, expectations too high.  Love yourself, my child.  Love your father.  But also see the humanity of the growing in that.

You are a blessed being.  Allow the tears to flow whenever.  But know that laughter should flow as well.  It isn’t that you must grow weary of your state of pain, but you will grow stronger and wiser and more loving of yourself and all of your choices.

Someone calling himself Nighthawkcof has two questions.  First he asks about the new venture he is starting on.  He says, “I am doing the right thing. It feels right but I don’t know if it is the thing I should do or if I should go back to a more conventional way of making my living.

His second question is about his long distance relationship of five years.  He says, “I feel very strongly for her but we just went through a difficult phase where we almost broke up. Her parents got sick and both died within a week’s time. I may not have provided the support she needed and we drifted apart. I think we caught ourselves from completely falling apart. The question here is not only for me. I am actually asking for some guidance for her too as she is considering moving and I think she could use guidance too.”

This one needs very much to trust in his inner being.  He does know what is right for him and he has answered his own question by saying it feels right but he doesn’t know.   Your world is an amazing tool to learn through.  It will give you time in each instance to make sure that what you have chosen is complete in the knowing of your being.

This one has always tried to help others and do for others and so in this return to this new career it is more helping himself.  And it is good.  But he will always stand, no matter what.  In any time or any place this one has the capacity to do all things in the physical world–to help, not only self for others.  You would call this one a Jack-of-all-trades; he might think master of none, but this is not true.  He is a master of being, seeing.  When you are present with this one he is totally clear and with ease that you can speak.  That is why he has helped many beings.  And that is why he often feels for himself he has not what he needs. He needs to trust in this now.

As to the relationship of distance, this is never a good thing–especially for beings that need touch, to be present, love.  It is not my place to say that he should not choose to be with this one.  But he knows he grows very weary of it.

And what if this young woman moving and chasing after, speaks one thing but feels in her heart something else.  He needs to find truth.  Both beings are very wondrous, but fear that being together would be disastrous.  Not so.  They must choose to not deny the wonders of the physical world:  touch warmth, sight.  Words are very easy to write down and send but to speak them from your heart in the presence of the one you love all wrapped in emotion in the vibrational state of vulnerability.  This is what is needed here.  Do not be afraid, blessed one; be.

Pam writes, “My husband’s business is failing.  They are not in trouble with the bank and are being proactive about going forward with whatever they need to do.  It came to me that it would also be proactive to sell our home.  He is not receiving a salary and mine does not cover the current bills.  I am also seriously considering separating from him after the sale of this house.  I have compassion for him, but do not love him like a ‘husband’.  He feels more like a brother.  I have stayed with him because I thought I had more financial security, but feel like this is a sign from the universe telling me to wake up.  If I stay with him I feel like I’m doing it to be nice but it is not what my heart desires.  Do you have any words of wisdom for me?”

The most important thing for this being to do is to find out her own truth.  This one is putting all her trust into the actions and choices of others and not into her own.  This isn’t a time to make a choice.  It is a time to be, to  be that that she is.   Many layers have been applied to her being, to cope, to maintain, to move through a time of difficulty.  It’s not unlike wearing coats of armour.  And as she begins to relieve herself of these layers of armour she will understand who she is.

She doesn’t want to cause harm.  Yes, she is attracted elsewhere because it doesn’t have all the complications that dwell within her life.

And how does she let that armour go piece by piece?

First by not being responsible for anyone else’s growth beyond her own.  By understanding that all her anger and railing at others to make moves and do and change is not going to change her feelings about anything.  She must be still within, go deep within the layer to understand how she loves herself, her life.  And dreams that were are not now.  She must understand what she truly is in the deepest and most loving part of her being, what she needs to be.  Not to do, but to be.

This is not an easy task.  I understand.  Your world has many pulls.  The physical domain is such that it puts pressure so that one needs to make the true choices of growth.  It doesn’t mean to walk away from it, for it will recur.  But one needs to be in and see what truly is present–the good.  And and that that you might consider not so good– but it creates growth.

This is a strong radiant being.  She has never spoken her truth, her deepest feelings, her fears, her love.  Do so now my dear.  To find out what you need, you must speak from your heart.  Whenever you are in the presence this mate you have chosen, you are fearful.  You must speak from you heart, take off the armour, speak of the tenderness. Speak that you want to fall into someone else, to feel held and supported.  Speak that he pulls away from you when you are most needy.  Perhaps it is your words, but it is your heart that aches.  Be not afraid to be tender.  You already know how strong you are.  Allow that balance of tenderness that is a part of you.

I cannot speak for his choices but you must first give all attempts to be that that you were with him and he with you to understand where and how you must proceed.  If you understand what promises are, you need to know that the two of you came together for a very large promise.  I will say to you, it is not complete yet.  That is why you struggle.  Be patient.

Almandine writes, “Are we meant to be polygamous or to have just one person we share our lives with? And why do men have roving eyes and cheat more than women? Is it a biological thing, or is it the society we live in that has conditioned their egos to make them do these things?”

This is a dear heart.  You have such sadness within you, and it comes forth in forms of anger and judgment and intolerance.  So you wonder if your entire world is filled with this.  It is simply through your vision at this time that you ask these questions and see this part of life.  Blessed one, take off those glasses and trust.  There is love.  There is wonder for you.  When one finds a mate, as to whether you choose to spend a lifetime… you might in this conscious mind believe that this is right, but in your spiritual growth, once the promise is complete you may feel the need to move on. But that is something you will choose in time and in growth.

There are no hard and fast rules, my blessed one.  Oh yes, this society makes many.  It finds comfort in having rules and categories and pigeonholes to force all beings to be in these.  But not all beings can my dear.  Do not be sad, blessed one.  Do not judge that all beings have what you call roving eyes.  Eyes are to see, to have vision.  Judge them not.  But trust that you will find the one that you feel secure and love.  But firstly you must find security and love within yourself.  And then you will draw it in the form of a love, deep and true.

No you have not consciously decided to distrust.  But of course part of you is very unsure about who you are and about the wonder of your own being.   Learn to love thyself.  Take time to look upon your image with joy and love and the excitement of that that is yet to be.  Take time to do this for you, my child.  Do not expect someone else to make you happy.  But you must make you happy.  You must make choices that please you, that love you.  You have had a path of helping others in many ways, creating growth for them.  Now it is time for you.   Do not be afraid or angry.  But allow yourself time.  You might call it healing.  I would call it loving—to alter, to balance, to love.  Bless you my child.

Krista writes, “Why is homelessness and addiction getting worse in our society? If we are one, then those that suffer are part of the oneness, but why do so many discriminate about homeless people? Why are people so unable to recognize the deep pain that causes the life situations of street people? Are the homeless providing a mirror of the pain that exists in this society that is plagued with addictions of all kinds, that people don’t want to look into? Why are we all so terrified of confronting our pain?

And can I have your permission to use your answer in a film I am now finishing about healing homelessness?”

Greetings.  Oh my dearest one, you live in a time of great growth. You will see the utmost in each part of growth.  You will see the very, very rich, the very, very poor, and the very ill, always when there is great growth there is great chaos happening in the physical world.  You seek to find an answer for these that feel they have no voice.  Their voice is being heard.

There are many reasons why they find themselves in these positions. There is not one blanket statement for any.  As if one who finds themselves in great wealth, sometimes they came to it through life’s opportunity; but one is seen as so perfect and the other is seen as so negative.  And why do we judge–for there should not be judgment.  There should be acceptance of all.

Society, as an organism, functions very well at times and is very ill at times.  Your society is ill at this time.  That is why there are so many in toxic states, but not all. Some choose to find their growth there.  Some of the most creative beings only feel comfortable in a state of such, well, to them they seek without any expectations.  And others feel so burdened by it that they feel paralyzed.  There is no one answer for any, my dear, for each individual is unique in wonder.

You ask why your society fears this.  All beings fear that that they cannot control.  They feel that maybe by the wrong step, or choices, that could be them.  So they must not even see it or think about it and so they shun it. As if by putting it in another place they do not see it.   Society must embrace their illness in order to heal it.

You have come to live in a most difficult and wondrous time. Many of these beings that you are seeking to hear and to see and to have your society see are the wisest of the wise, the most ancient, the most evolved beings.  But, because they choose to not conform to the society’s expectations, they are shunned when they need to be embraced.

Why do beings use drugs?  Why is there so much denial of feelings in your physical world right now?  It is  time when there is so much talk and so much truly emotional attachment whether it be through work, or physical.  To numb the choices, to numb the growth, to numb the brain that knows the truth.  All of these beings that make these choices know their truth, but they don’t and can’t be in it right now, so they choose whatever manner to escape.  They want out.  So this drug taking is seeking to find a way out.

Love them.  See those wise faces. Touch those untouched hands.  Every society in the physical learning ground has had their untouchables.  Why? It is part of the growth.  You need to know it to be whole. A lifetime of this experience is necessary to be this spiritual whole being.  Why would you choose it at the end of your evolution?

Forgive me, it is not easy to be very evolved in your physical world.  For it is often the most difficult lifetimes you choose are the ones that are the completion of the whole of this physical learning.  The last one to understand the evolution of the being from the very new soul to the very evolved.  To know that each part of the human condition must be experienced in order to be whole. But these are all part of the wise faces, knowing all.  Understand that even knowing all of this, each individual is important.  In that moment, be present with whomever you are with.  They should be important, as important as you must hold yourself.  Teach them to love themselves and they will choose what they need.

Dear one, you walk a walk that is very difficult.  You need to understand the pain for your being has been filled with pain for this entire lifetime.  You have seen what you might call the under belly of the world because you have chosen to see it.   You do not turn away from the pain and are seeking ways of expressing it–and and through your art, you can.

So, some of the homeless are learning and also teachers?

Yes, of course.  We all can find teachers amongst us.  We all must be learning.

It appears to be chaotic in our world today.

I would like to say to you that it could all be banished and all be helpful and healed, but there will always be a certain area or availability to grow to understand this part of life.  It is not a pious way of sensing one as better than the other.  It does not mean that you do not step forward to help in any way.  It means, why must they live in a home if they choose to live where they live?  If they want a home they shall find it.  See them not as weak and unable to make a choice.  See them as radiant, beautiful beings with their own ability to choose their own growth.  So love them, feed them and see them.

Thank you.